2018 Resolutions
I haven't wanted to make new year's resolutions this year for whatever reason. Part of me doesn't want to keep writing down some of the same things that don't ever seem to come to fruition, like get stronger, probably because I don't like doing push-ups or lifting weights. The good thing is that January 1st isn't the only time we can desire change and set out to do just that, to reset, as Kylie would say. In August I started reading the Bible consistently every day using the One Year Bible that I have had for awhile. While I didn't do it perfectly, I did better than I ever have in the past. I know that having pre-selected passages to read made it easier to follow through with the goal of consistently being in the Word every day.
I went to visit my sweet grandmother today, and she asked me if I had made some resolutions for this year. After I responded, she said it wasn't too late to make some.
My list would probably look like this:
What do I really want to happen in 2018? What can I not get out of my mind? I want to be married. Probably more than ever. This year I want to meet "the one" and become friends with him. I want a best friend that becomes a fiancé, as I read on a missionary's blog last night. I don't really want to date unless that is the process needed to be married. The other day one of my married friends was saying how she knows a lot of single girls who are in their upper 30s. I know she was trying to be comforting, but I don't want that to be my story. I'm just being honest. Ultimately, I know God is in control, and His ways are far greater than my own. I know that He alone can satisfy the deepest desires of my heart. I know that patience has been something I believe God has been saying to me. But how long must I wait? Although He knows this desire I have, He also says to ask Him. I get that this is an active asking, but I'm not quite sure how that plays out with a husband. My chalkboard still has Psalm 73:25-26, 28, because I want it to be true for me. There is nothing on earth that I desire besides You, O Lord. You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. It is good for me to be near You. Though I know that I am never alone, being single feels lonely, especially when I don't have much going on.
So, Lord, I am asking You to provide. I want to meet and marry this man who is so in love with You...and me...and others. I want to fall in love, so that together, through marriage, we can demonstrate Your love. Lord, I know that marriage is both spiritual and temporary. I know that You haven't promised me marriage, and I don't deserve it. But I want it. I want to experience life with someone at my side. To dream together. To ask questions together. To laugh together. To read together. To be with You together. To learn together. To serve together. To pray together. To go on adventures together. To do simple things together.
Lord, I pray that this desire wouldn't become an idol. Help me to say it and leave it at Your feet. Help me to fix my eyes on You, the author and perfecter of our faith. And as Jesus prayed, NOT MY WILL BUT YOURS.
I went to visit my sweet grandmother today, and she asked me if I had made some resolutions for this year. After I responded, she said it wasn't too late to make some.
My list would probably look like this:
- eat healthy
- exercise consistently (and get stronger of course)
- read the Bible and be with God every day
- pray more purposefully
- go on fun trips during school breaks
- read at least 15 books
- go back to school for a masters
- eat out less
- worry less
- don't stress
- love well
- laugh more
- practice Spanish
- focus on one or two volunteer opportunities (Mercy Street? Young Life? Misson Oak Cliff?)
What do I really want to happen in 2018? What can I not get out of my mind? I want to be married. Probably more than ever. This year I want to meet "the one" and become friends with him. I want a best friend that becomes a fiancé, as I read on a missionary's blog last night. I don't really want to date unless that is the process needed to be married. The other day one of my married friends was saying how she knows a lot of single girls who are in their upper 30s. I know she was trying to be comforting, but I don't want that to be my story. I'm just being honest. Ultimately, I know God is in control, and His ways are far greater than my own. I know that He alone can satisfy the deepest desires of my heart. I know that patience has been something I believe God has been saying to me. But how long must I wait? Although He knows this desire I have, He also says to ask Him. I get that this is an active asking, but I'm not quite sure how that plays out with a husband. My chalkboard still has Psalm 73:25-26, 28, because I want it to be true for me. There is nothing on earth that I desire besides You, O Lord. You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. It is good for me to be near You. Though I know that I am never alone, being single feels lonely, especially when I don't have much going on.
So, Lord, I am asking You to provide. I want to meet and marry this man who is so in love with You...and me...and others. I want to fall in love, so that together, through marriage, we can demonstrate Your love. Lord, I know that marriage is both spiritual and temporary. I know that You haven't promised me marriage, and I don't deserve it. But I want it. I want to experience life with someone at my side. To dream together. To ask questions together. To laugh together. To read together. To be with You together. To learn together. To serve together. To pray together. To go on adventures together. To do simple things together.
Lord, I pray that this desire wouldn't become an idol. Help me to say it and leave it at Your feet. Help me to fix my eyes on You, the author and perfecter of our faith. And as Jesus prayed, NOT MY WILL BUT YOURS.
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