That 4-Letter Word

Love.

The four types of love (affection, friendship, eros, charity), the five love languages (quality time, gifts, physical touch, words of affirmation, acts of service), our deep desire to be loved, the One True Love. There are verses and books and poems and songs. 

The daily Shema--
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your soul, and with all your strength. And you shall love your neighbor as yourself. "  

The longing. 
The desire.
The unknown. 
The risk.
The doubt. 
The questions. 
The lack of understanding.
The heartbreak. 
The tears.
The peace that surpasses all understanding.
The joy.
The intimacy.
The commitment.
The difficulties. 
The choice.

What do I know about love? Not much! He's in Guatemala, and I'm in Texas. Not ideal. We talk on the phone for multiple hours a day...in Spanish. He doesn't speak much English. He has never been to the United States, and there's no guarantee he'll get a visa. Time together has been short. 

Are we crazy to keep pursuing this relationship?
Is he just fulfilling a desire I have to not be alone?
Is this relationship really in God's will?
Is this some sort of childish fantasy or could this really work out?
Will we get married in the end? How do you know that you should get married to that specific person?
What if things don't work out?
What about the cultural, economic, and language differences? Or do they even matter?
What if we get married and then there's issues?
What if we don't heed others' advice, and then they say "I told you so"?
What about our friends and families? Would they all get along?
Are we asking each other to sacrifice too much?
Why are we both still here?